Mr Monster and I are now less than a week away from our wedding. When we first got engaged, we knew that we didn’t want a traditional wedding with all its formality and expectation. We wanted something to reflect us, our spirit, and our creativity.
We set about planning a D.I.Y wedding complete with handmade felt flowers and buttonholes, a largely homemade dress, and musical entertainment from Mr Monster himself. What I didn’t anticipate amongst all this was the pressure I would feel to create something spectacular not just for us but for all involved. I’m pleased with the way things are turning out but I am cranky, stressed, and generally unpleasant to be around. Why anyone would want to marry me just now is beyond me.
Is this the same for all brides? Is this just me? Am I putting too much pressure on myself? Who knows, all I do know is that it seems to me that planning a wedding is a test to see if at the end of it all, you still want to be together after heated debates about invitation fonts, shoe colours and various other insignificant details.
Bilbo Baggins said it best when he described himself as feeling like ‘butter spread over too much bread’. I feel drained from the stress of keeping all the organisational plates spinning in these final few weeks and can’t wait for the day to arrive so as I can relax and enjoy the fruits of our labours. In five days I’m having my nails done (which I never normally do), and that is the moment when I can legitimately stop sewing like a madwoman so as not to ruin them, and enjoy the last few days of my single life. Once the gels are on, I will be doing nothing more taxing than drinking bubbly and opening the odd wedding card which drops onto our doormat until the moment I say I do. Hopefully I will become my usual self again instead of this crazed Bridezilla which I never wanted to be. It seems to me that for most brides, as relaxed as you want to be about your nuptials, a bit of stress is inevitable. I just hope that on the day itself I can rise above my worries and take it all in.