Determination Station

21 Jun

It’s currently half three in the morning, I am in my dressing gown with the cat going crazy climbing over my keyboard.  Not ideal blogging conditions I agree….however, I felt compelled to write a little of what has been on my mind.

Anyone who knows me well will have experienced my little ups and downs. Inconvenient, irrational, tempestuous little storms which brew every now and then and catch me unawares.  Despite being truly the happiest I have ever been since setting up camp with my marvellous Mr Monster, I have had more than my fair share of these over the last couple of weeks. Largely I put these little blips down to losing my confidence every now and then and it wasn’t until I settled down and picked up a needle and thread again for the first time in over a month that I realised how much my fabric monsters actually give me.

When an germ of an idea for a project forms in my mind it takes over completely, it grows and develops until I can see a blurry picture of what it might become. Once construction starts, my creature starts to dictate to me how its face should look, what embellishments it needs and tells me its name and the bare bones of its life story. When all this is going on I don’t have time to worry about those insignificant little things in life which bring us all down and with fabric and thread I feel confident, capable and in control.

The sense of satisfaction I get from welcoming a completed monster to the world just can’t be beaten and I realise now how much I had missed it.  Now more than ever I am starting to understand that monstering is much more to me than just a hobby.  I have a newfound determination to make something of it, to get my name known as a fabric artist, feature in magazines, write my own book……who knows.  Rest assured you will be the first to hear about it.

Anyway…….enough soul searching, I’m going back to bed.

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